So you think you had me fooled? And everyone of my family thought that I had myself fooled by someone like you. You had me, alright. You struck me with the kind of attitude that your mom has. And you defend her with all your heart. Leaving me alone. Hated, mocked, and alone. And so you think you've won the battle? You finally got our family pinned down to the ground? Hell! You really thought that I gave you my all. In which case I did. But I've learned from my mistakes.
...
I wasn't blind when I know that you were just playing your games with me. I just didn't mind them because at the height of our relationship, you were so loving. So... un-you. You had me fooled, alright. With all your pep talks about your ex-es and how they wooed you. With all your arrogance telling me that you've never really courted anyone, it's just that your a chick-magnet. Who are you kidding? And my God, you're really the KING of all LIES. You don't drink, you don't smoke! Hell yeah! You got me.
...
Remember the time, you brought a slut in your room. What a shame, cause I have to be the one to catch you with that low-life whore. You had me creeping all over you, I admit. But what's the deal with your mom, broadcasting to the whole world that I am the one who's after you??? The hell you are. You should've been grateful, that despite every heartache you've caused me, I'm still with you. Let us say, I'm stuck with you.
...
Yes, I'm carrying your child. But then, haven't it occurred to you that I can raise this child alone? And I have to say, I'm no longer afraid to leave you. YOU made my life a living hell. God, you even suck the life out of me. I know I'm not that smart, but I'm wise enough to learn that I can never make you love me the way that I wanted you to love me.
...
Oh, yeah. We really are different. We're two worlds apart and it took me a whole lot to figure that out. LIAR! I should've known you were that. I can't even count the times you've lied to my face. And no, I don't want to believe in you anymore. You really are like you're mother. Selfish. I hope you understand every word I say though. But I guess you wouldn't.
...
I hate you. With every breath of my soul. With every beat of my heart. I hate you. And the more I say it to myself. The more I lie to myself. But I have to hate you because you've cost me more than I could ever bargain. You've cost me my first-born, my family, my education -- my everything.
...
Why can't you have any conscience with you? You manipulative jerk. How the hell can you do this to me? What have I done to you to cause me so much misery, so much hatred and so much pain? I swear to God, I'll make sure that you'll pay for what you've done to me. I know that there will never be a happily-ever-after between us. But I'm not going down without a fight. I hope you get back together with your Ex. You both deserve each other.
No comments:
Post a Comment